Thursday, March 1, 2018

Jan-Feb Self Portraits

I am a mama of 3 wild ones! I love to document our days and their little details that make them up. This photo is just a real, raw look into my daily life. I want to capture the messy and dirty, along with the sweet and smiley.
Being a family of five, living in the UK with these small washers and dryers is a challenge at time! But I'm going to sit here and embrace it!

 Vanessa Barrow
Low light, low shutter speed, low cal, no sugars, no gluten ---hello, whole 30 challenge!

Feeding my 4th baby...and he will be my last. What a gift to have this special moment of motherhood captured between us. Nothing in the world compares to this baby-mommy bond...nothing.

In November 2016, under some bizarre circumstances, I discovered I had a 13 year old half sister... After living 25 years of my life as an only child, to say this news was a shock would be an understatement. I would come to find out that her mom had passed away from cancer that June and she was now living with her grandparents. The amount of emotions I felt that month, rocked me to my core. Here this girl was; my sister. 13 years old, having recently lost her mother and not knowing our father. I couldn't handle it, I had to be a part of her life.
Fast forward to August 2017 -- We took a trip to Colorado and I was able to meet my sister for the first time. I see so much of myself in her, it's crazy! We're both silly, tall, lanky, brown-haired, blue-eyed, animal-loving artists, with extensive Pokemon and Beanie Baby collections. I can't believe we shared the same last name, lived in the same town for ten years and we never knew one another existed! I haven't seen our dad in nearly twenty years and she hasn't seen him in nearly ten. Our dad might not be in our lives, but I'm so incredibly grateful that I get to be in her's.

The night before my oldest's first day of 1st grade. I took a photo of me carrying him to bed, before his first day of Kindergarten. I figured I'd continue the tradition, because one of these days, he'll be too big for me to carry.

Our husbands watched the kids, while we went out for dinner, margaritas, and a trip to Hobby Lobby. #bestdayever

Eight years ago, we found out we were going to be parents. After only dating for a month and teenagers at the time, our lives were about to change forever. We were scared of what the future might hold. The following day, my boyfriend showed up on my doorstep with flowers to celebrate our first Valentine's day. That's when I knew everything was going to be alright. One year later, that man proposed to me. And two years after that, we planned a spontaneous wedding at the courthouse, before he embarked on his career path to becoming an Air Traffic Controller. We now live in Texas, my husband is thriving in his ATC career, while I'm able to stay at home and raise our two amazing little boys. I could not have pictured a more perfect future.

Carra Rathbun Photography
It may not technically the greatest or the best light situation, etc.....but our kids LOVE our dance parties in the kitchen, so I wanted to document the times that we crank up the music and all go crazy. My 2018 goal was to be just to shoot unhindered by all the "rules" I try to follow. To shoot no matter if lighting was ideal or location was the best....I don't want to miss moments because I was waiting for the ideal.   Because moments always win

Holding the moment it all became real.

Rachael Ramirez
It's not exactly a self portrait because my then 9 year old took it, but he got a pic of me nursing in the pick up line at school while sewing his costume together. You can see his reflection. I forgot all about this until I was organizing old photos.

Snuggle Bunnies

Tonight, I took a relaxing bath alone.

Just kidding; I'm a mom.

But really, these are the moments that I never even used to consider capturing myself. I thought if I wanted to be in any of the photos, I would need to book a photo session with another photographer. But the thing is, these funny moments rarely happen when we have a visitor in our home. Tonight was kind of an experiment. I set up my gear so I would be prepared to capture the crazy that is the ordinary here. I am dealing with a clogged milk duct and was hoping a warm bath would help. I always try to slip into a bath alone, but it never turns out that way. I wanted to be ready in case that happened again. Sure enough, I began running the water and lots of little feet came scampering in; dog included. Moms really don't get a second of alone time while the kids are can be frustrating at times, but I sure do feel loved!

He is the King of Pancakes, but burns the eggs every single time. I am the Master of the Scramble, but my pancakes always end up undercooked in the middle. But between the two of us, we can make a yummy Sunday morning breakfast!

Natasha Thompson
So I photographed my own labor & delivery the other day. I thought it would be cool to capture birth progression & labor experience from the mothers perspective

I always pictured having a girl but life hasn't worked out that way. Instead, I've become a mom of boys. I'm growing to love the hand we've been dealt and if one day God decides to bless us with a daughter... well then great.... but right now, I think we'll be just fine without any daughters; my three sons are enough for me.

I am not a perfect mom, but one thing is for sure:
I can throw a damn good bubble bath tub party.

y daughter just turned ONE New Years Eve.  We have been exclusively breastfeeding for one whole year! We had ups and downs and it was WORK but we made it!  

To my son, Jameson Boone.
Mama went to see her therapist today. That therapist being known as Target.
My heart will never forget this day, the fun we had flying back and forth down the isle in front of my camera [that was strategically stashed away in a tower of diaper boxes] or the hilarious out takes I had from my weight making the front of the cart fly up- you thought that was pretty funny. I’m sure people who saw probably thought we were nuts, but that’s okay. I’d do anything with you. You are my best friend! Every time I look at this photo it makes my heart happy and puts a grin on my face. The way your hand is placed and you’re looking forward makes me imagine you saying, “alright mom, lets do this! Hereeee we gooo!"

My journey of motherhood; 3 healthy babies, this one a rainbow baby, 2 miscarriages, and all in 7 years.

Flew by myself for the first time with my three boys (4, 2, and 6mos). We had a 2.5 hour flight, a 2 hour layover, and then finished off our trip with a 13 hour flight from Vancouver to Taipei. I was so darn exhausted but so proud of myself that I felt like I needed to document!

"I am worthy to feel beautiful in this beautiful" We should always feel like this, but for some many, me included, it's not how we feel, especially after becoming mothers. So, on the rare days we do, even if right before getting ready for bed, absolutely take a moment to capture yourself feeling beautiful. Go back to that picture on the days you feel defeated. You are beautiful, mama!

I was never one of those girls that knew they wanted to be a mom.  In fact, I was pretty sure that I did not want to have kids.  I just never saw myself as a nurturing or maternal person.  I never got “baby fever” when all of my friends were having kids.  I was perfectly happy with my life with my husband and two dogs.  But then, I suffered a miscarriage in August 2016 and something shifted.  Losing that baby made me realize that maybe I did have all of those mommy qualities and feelings.  They must have just been hiding deep down inside me somewhere.  I believe that all things happen for a reason and that is how I was able to cope with my miscarriage.  I think that baby’s purpose was to make me learn some things about myself that I did not know existed. I got pregnant with Porter just 2 months later.  This baby boy is my world.  Looking into those big, beautiful, brown eyes everyday really puts into perspective what life is all about.

"mothering. is a poetry.

an articulate.
blinding. poetry.

when you pour him from your body.
that is a poetry.
when you wash. his. new body. in the kitchen sink.
that is a poetry.

when you calculate the distance from your house. and all the streets.

how long it will take him to arrive at his best friend’s home.

and return.


that is a strategic. poetry.
a navigation. the maverick’s poetry.
a poetry of architecture. careful craft.
a war captain’s. poetry.

you. have built a paradise.
he is a paradise.
sekyiwa is a paradise.
you are a paradise.

you. protect paradise.
protecting paradise. is a poetry..."

- afeni shakur

These kids, my kids, they run circles around me.    

I didn't want to jump in the shot. I hate the way I look right now and all my clothes just made me look like I need to lose 20 pounds. But I needed a good promo pic from some mini sessions and I wanted to show a mom with her babies. So business won out and look what we scored 

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